We had some fun times and some not so fun, recently.
It was great for Usagi-chan to wend her way back to us, as herself and not as the princess, but she had the distressing news that Chiba-san is siding with the Dark Kingdom. It made me grow cold all over to hear that. We have to stick with Usagi-chan and support her, she says she’s okay with this and will work through it, but it must be awful.
She says she’s okay, and she does seem to be dealing quite well. I suppose the only thing to do is be there for her.
I have to make up the test that I missed in cram school on Friday today. I have an appointment this afternoon after school. I’m not sure what’s going to happen between myself and Us-Tsukino-san today. I want to apologize, but I don’t think I can bring myself to face her. I did some very stupid things.
There’s a possibility of activity going on with youma at a museum that’s having a display of stones and jewelry this week. I’d already promised that I would look into it before all this happened. Even if we’re not talking too each other I can’t let down the side.
Oh, I’m such an idiot!!! How and why did I ever decide any of that was a good idea? It was so exhausting, and now Tsukino-san has to be completely angry with me, given what she said about liars and friends, and that is what I was doing.
It was so uncomfortable.
The karoke party was fun in some respects, even if I didn’t know how to put make-up on properly but I should have left and gone to cram school…
I would call Tsukino-san and apologise except common sense kicks in that it’s almost two o’clock in the morning, and she wouldn’t be very happy to hear from at this time, if she even woke up.
Hopefully now that I’ve calmed down a bit I can get some sleep, but, well, I was by myself before. Maybe I can still help out with senshi things, but the friend thing…well, I blew it, I have to face the consequences of that.
I’m going to try the things in this book I found. It’s setting my mind at ease some as I’m reading it, and echoing some of the fears I’ve had.
I keep remembering the discussion that went on the other day between myself Tsuk–Usagi-chan, and Rei-san at the Crown center. How friends call each other by their first names, and Rei-s-chan calls her Usagi-chan and has known her less time. I keep putting it off because I don’t feel comfortable, and it’s causing a rift.
I don’t want to lose them as my friends, though.
I’m so nervous, Tsukino-san is trying to organize a sleep-over, I know Rei-san really doesn’t want to go, she seems to think the whole idea is ridiculous. Especially because she doesn’t know anyone from our school, and it would be really hard to explain how we randomly befriended someone from T*A.
Tsukino-san’s disappointed, apparently her friend Naru; Osaka-san from school would also be there, I don’t know Osaka-san all that well. Plus it if it’s an after school get together I’d probably have to leave for cram school anyway depending on what day it is, so I don’t know if I should go. *sighs* I know Tsukino-san would be very disappointed, I think she’s already upset with me because I don’t call her “Usagi” there was this big thing about that. It’s not close to friends to call them by their last names and all the rest of it, to her.
I think I was write about not understanding how friends are supposed to work, but I’ve never really had any before. Honestly, I haven’t had any before. I don’t know if I have them now…if I’m not calling them by their first names we mustn’t be close and so that means we can’t be friends!
Just a quick still alive update, I never thought that could be a serious issue until now, but this senshi stuff could be really scary, and really deadly. I mean, Tsukino-san almost fell to her death…she could have died…I read back over the post I wrote earlier this morning about it and I feel like I’m going to be sick.
The party was loud. I’ve never really been to a place like that before, but given it was ‘business’ there wasn’t really much of a time to enjoy the party.
I felt a little uncomfortable dressed as a cat-girl, but I could at least move in a gainly fashion than Tsukino-san who was in a giant teddy-bear suit. She was having such problems, that Luna and I went to investigate the crystal ‘back-stage’ and left her on the floor.
As I was wondering around I ran into Rei-san. After some hesitation on both our parts we agreed that we could sort of understand where each other was coming from and that we could work together for the investigating given that two heads was better than one if we came across a youma of some kind.
As it was we did. The lady who was looking after the crystal seemed to have been taken over, was able to get the box away from her so that we had the crystal and the enemy wouldn’t. When the youma appeared we henshined, and Rei-san/Mars told me to get the crystal away from there, she would handle the youma and call Tsukino-san. What we didn’t realize at that point was that there was more than one youma, and I wound up stuck on the roof with them after me, and unable to do anything for fear of losing the box with the crystal in it, until Luna could look at it and tell us whether it was the crystal we were looking for or not.
Thankfully, Tsukino-san and Rei-san were able to rescue me. But we had a problem in that whenever we attacked the youma they would regenerate each other…we realized that we had to all attack at once, but our timing was off and we got trapped behind a building.
Music was floating up from the party, Aino Minako’s new single, ‘C’est la vie,’ Tsukino-san started singing along, and we realized, much to Rei-san’s distress that if we sang along with the song we could keep ourselves in time, and attack in-sync.
It worked, but by then we had lost control of the crystal, and the enemy had it. Tuxedo Kamen managed to get it away from the enemy, but in doing so pitched it towards the edge of the roof. Tsukino-san leapt to catch it, but didn’t have balance and almost fell. Rei-san and I were too far away to help, but Tuxedo Kamen tried, pitching them both off the roof. I was too terrified to even breathe…but then the strangest thing happened. Tsukino-san’s wand/weapon started to glow and an orb of light encircled them and seemed to act like a parachute, lowering them to the ground at a safe velocity.
I thought I would pass out, but Rei-san picked me back up and we headed for the stairs, trying to speculate what could have happened.
Tsukino-san was fine, thankfully, and Rei-san agreed that she would work with us, and that it wasn’t so bad. Although I can anticipate that she and Tsukino-san are going to have problems given Rei-san apparently despises karoake with the same kind of passion that Tsukino-san tries to avoid math problems, and Tsukino-san is rather keen on music, specifically Aino Minako and spreading the good word about her to the masses.
We’re finding ourselves a way to go to the big party for Halloween which is being held by the princess (not The Princess that we’re looking for (at least I don’t think so)) because there’s a crystal that was shown on the television Luna thinks may well be important (so even if she’s not The Princess it might be The Crystal).
It’s a dress-up party. This is problematic because we can’t use the phones for disguise in case it wears off at an inappropriate time so we have to find actual costumes. I’ve never done something like this before. I have no idea what I might find. Tsukino-san has had quite a few ideas, but none of them have been any that I feel comfortable with. She says that I probably won’t feel comfortable with any of them so I should just close my eyes and pick one. She’s trying to decide between going as a giant rabbit or a giant bear. There are lots of other costumes like that which she thinks I would be “cute” as; but I keep telling her that a costume like that is really restrictive it will be hard to move, she might not even be able to see.
So, the discussion goes on, now that I am home we are back and forthing by text message.
This reminds me…I keep forgetting to ask if they have a computer, and if so, if she has her own journal. She should perhaps know about this one, I do write about her here.
Spent the evening at Tsukino-san’s again.
She is wanting to talk to Rei-san, but Luna told us of a more pressing thing that she was concerned about, and then we actually ran into Rei-san, but she still would rather work by herself. I felt as if I have no room to talk on that one, I would rather eat lunch with myself because I don’t want to…maybe she’s afraid, too, that she will be used or turned on or something. She said that she prefers to work alone because that’s how she does things. But maybe we can at least arrange with her to work together on senshi matters, but she doesn’t necessarily have to become friends with us personally.
I’m sure we’re not always going to be blessed with fighting things that we can kill easily. There’s bound to be something controlling them, and it scares me to think how powerful that thing may be.
Anyhow, to track this thing which Luna was concerned about, a gem which she wonders if it is the ginzuisho or not. We’re going to have to attend a party being given by the gem’s owner. Tsukino-san is excited, it means getting to use the ‘dress-up-phone’ again. I just hope she doesn’t keep using it in public, someone may notice…I need to make sure I’m up to date on my school work, who knows what will happen on Friday at this party.
Been so busy I didn’t get much of a chance to see Tsukino-san today.
She was suggesting, again, that I sit and eat lunch with her and the other girls, but I would feel so uncomfortable, there’s a part of you that doesn’t want to be nice and polite because you know the things they’ve said about you…and even though I always manage to rein in such horrific impulses I don’t want to feel so two-faced.
We did talk briefly on the phone, but Mama-san was actually home, so I had to cut it short to eat dinner.
I should get back to studying.
I think Tsukino-san is wanting to go back over to the Hikawa Shrine soon and talk to Rei-san. It might be a long enough break that she won’t feel like she’s being hounded…
