Mizuno Ami’s Journal

Mama-san wants me to transfer schools.

I’m at a loss.
I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.

Yet I can’t give a satisfactory explanation for why not, or why I’ve missed cram school, or what I was doing that the policeman found us.

What am I going to do?

Edit: On the one hand maybe she would send me to Rei-chan’s school. It is a private school…

Things are very strange, especially because of Kuroki Mio…
When we got to school after the battle the other day we found that the class was upset with Usagi, to put it mildly. We had believed perhaps Minako Venus had been wrong on her impressions of Kuroki-san being someone to watch, after she was kind to Usagi and seemed understanding, but then when Osaka-san and I got to class we found she was telling the class in such a way they believed Usagi had deliberately hurt Kuroki-san, it was awful!
I keep remembering how I could swear she kicked Usagi the other day while everyone was playing volleyball…then I think maybe I’m wrong, but there’s certain times where she just…there’s just…I can’t put it into words.
At least Osaka-san also believes Usagi’s character is genuine, without knowing the full extent of the situation, otherwise I don’t think Usagi could bear it.
The main other focus has been the fact that Mako-chan hasn’t awakened to her senshi powers yet. I’m not sure if there’s anything the rest of us can do to help her…I wish there was.

We have a new student Kuroki Mio-san who is an idol, like Aino Minako, only she has just appeared and is already ’super-popular’. Usagi-chan doesn’t seem to be taking too well to this…she feels bound by a loyalty to Aino Minako to not like her so much, and the others in the class are all very excited and paying her a lot of attention.
She does seem okay; but I worry, of course, especailly Usagi-chan was hit by her serves, several times while the class was playing volleyball, even once in the nose.
*chews thumb* Kuroki-san was apologetic about it, and Usagi-chan stubbornly refuses to back down. But then I could swear she hit Usagi-chan on purpose…maybe I’m seeing monsters were there aren’t any.

Training, though, training, even after the extra sessions, didn’t go quite so well, in itself; but then Artemis-san, Sailor Venus’s cat came into the room. He explained to us Sailor Venus is worried about Kuroki Mio, but then there was a youma…so of course discussion had to be put on hold. *ahem*

In a sense it was useful, I’ve been able to practice using the tambourine’s some more. They’re an interesting device. In a sense they work like an amplifier, enabling us to use an attack without having to call and focus so much. We had a difficult time of it, the youma was able to absorb most of the attacks that we sent out towards it, and when we were trying to use the attack we had used the other day, a combination attack…it disarmed me.
While I was willing the youma to be able to not get the tambourine, energy flowed through me and caught the tambourine (not the youma) and enabled Luna to retrieve it for me. I was a little dumbstruck. Luna used an odd attack against the youma, which distracted it enough that we were able to use the attack, and defeat it.

Usagi had apparently been talking to Kuroki-san before the youma attacked, hopefully they were airing out their differences, and can see peace enough that there aren’t any strange things like there were today.
Kuroki-san seemed to be okay with Usagi-chan, she had been cut somehow, perhaps youma attack, and Usagi-chan bound her arm, and she said she was fine.

We can report that back to Artemis now, and it should be a relief for Venus-san.

We have a new student at school: Kuroki Mio, she’s an idol, like Aino Minako (more about some events concerning her in a little bit). Usagi-chan is wary of her (Kuroki Mio), to say the least. To me, she seems alright, sometimes a little like she’s trying over-much, but I think it might be the adjustment to being a student, and the fact that everyone is excited by her? Trying to weed out genuine people from otaku? Me just making excuses because I don’t like to think ill of people?
Judgement will have to be reserved.

We started the new training today, after rescuing Luna from Motoki-onii-san…well…perhaps the other way around. She looks so young as a human that he didn’t want to let her in to the center, so we had to vouch for her.
The new training is a concentration technique, also designed to inulcate patience, and skill. We have to try and catch confetti being blown through the air, with chopsticks, to add to the difficulty there are many different colors of confetti and we are only allowed to catch ‘our own’ it’s quite tricky, even trying to focus on just one piece of confetti…
Rei-chan can already manage it…but then she’s Awake, aware of more, so must remember the technique from before. I did have vague feelings of deja-vu about it…but…I suppose I don’t trust myself enough to allow myself to remember it.

Luna is calling us back to try again, so I will have to edit and add more later.

We’ve been having a break in the youma sense. I’ve been able to catch up on some school work, and I’ve been helping Usagi-chan as well.

We haven’t seen all that much of Rei-chan. Hikawa is hosting a children’s festival this weekend and so she’s been helping them to prepare.

Usagi-chan, Mako-chan and I had a study session yesterday, until they got into a brief argument about Tuxedo Kamen again. I’m finding I really don’t like it when things like that happen because I feel so torn. I wish I had more information about the situation as a whole so that I could feel I was making a better decision.

Usagi-chan was excited to day because her grade average has gone up a few points. I’m glad she’s proving to herself that she’s able to excel. Hopefully this will give her more confidence in her abilities.

Usagi-chan found and introduced herself to the new girl today. She told us about it at the Crown. Rei-chan is curious about her because in her travels Usagi-chan brought Kino-san over to the shrine and introduced the two of them.
From what Rei-chan tells me she is perturbed because she got a strange vibe from Kino-san which means she’s either our fourth senshi, or a yoma, so we have to tread reallly  carefully. I think I’m pretty safe to say we’re all hoping that she’s the senshi.
I have seen her eating lunch a few times, and as I pointed out at the meeting she obviously takes great care to make her lunches, and has a very gentle side to be able to do so. It has to be her who makes her lunches as she told Usagi-chan that she lives by herself. I know how lonely it is being by myself those nights when Mama is working, living by myself all the time I couldn’t even imagine. I didn’t ask why that’s the case I’m not sure if Usagi-chan even knows.
Usagi-chan wants the rest of us to meet with Kino-san and talk with her about that…but neither Rei-chan nor myself wish to force someone to become a senshi if that is the case. I remember how freaked out I was when Usagi-chan brought the subject up to me, and I turned out to be a senshi; what if she’s not?

Given previous experience though, perhaps she will understand and accept this task…I’m not sure which to hope for, so I’ll just hope for the best.

Usagi-chan was telling me over the weekend that she’d been hearing a lot about some older boys who were playing basketball, and that a lot of her friends were almost obsessive about watching them. I thought maybe she was exaggerating about things the way she’s tending to do with things in the past.

When we got to school today though she appeared to be telling the truth; that they were going on about these people and it was very unnatural. I thought perhaps it was just confined to school, or something to do with crushes; but several people at cram school were also going on about them, and even though I don’t know much about the ways of romance it seems that it’s not right at all.

Usagi-chan leaned over the wall scowering the street below us for signs of something. I really hope it’s not just a cute boy, “Have you heard about her?” she said, apparently continuing some train of thought in her head and expecting us to follow.

“About who?” Rei-chan asked.

“The new girl.”

“New girl?” I asked.

“At school,” Usagi continued.

“Well. then I have no hope,” Rei, from her stance leanig against the wall and drumming her fingers against it looked a little annoyed.

I chewed on my thumbnail, “I’m truly sorry, Usagi-chan, but I really don’t know,” I said, after thinking over everyone I’d seen over the past few days.

“Your points canceled out,” Rei said, turning to look at me from the other side of Usagi-chan. Her right arm was crooked on the wall, and she leaned in towards the bridge a little to avoid Usagi who was craning over so far she looked as though she might well fall.

“What?” I asked, “Usagi-chan, be careful!”

“You called her ‘Usagi-chan’,” Rei explained, “but then you so formally said you were ‘hontoni gomen‘ that the negative points canceled out the ones you gained. Usagi-chan doesn’t need such formality.”

Usagi-chan blew a raspberry at Rei-chan, fleetingly taking her eyes off the street below, “I don’t know if you’re on my side or not, Rei-chan!”  she pouted, “I don’t think she’s such a brute.”

“Who?” I asked, “Rei-chan or myself?”

Usagi-chan laughed, “No, silly, the new girl, the one I’ve been talking about this entire time.”

“An event,” Rei-chan said, “Normally you drift off topic like prayers in the fire.”

“What’s her name?”  I asked, hoping to continue to keep the conversation on topic.

“I don’t know,” Usagi-chan said, whiny tones in her voice, “I just heard she’s really tall,” she turned back  around so she was facing between Rei-chan and myself, “and um…” her hands falter near her chest area, “um…she’s tall,” she turned back towards the bridge, “You would know her if you’d seen her. She doesn’t have our uniform yet.”

A spotlight went on in my brain replaying lunch earlier that day and the girl who was sitting on the opposite side of the roof. I found myself waving my hands as I recalled the image, “I have! I’ve seen her…I think…” I stopped, blushing as I realized what I was doing and grabbing one hand with the other.

Rei-chan laughed a little, but stopped fairly quickly as if she too doesn’t want to let loose for fear of what might be said, settling on a bemused look.

“…but…” I continued, “the point was that I’ve seen her.”

Usagi-chan turned to me and grabbed hold of my hands excitedly, “Truly? Where?”

“Eating lunch near where I do, if her uniform is tan and white that is.”

“Yes! Yes!” Usagi-chan beamed, jumping up and down and pulling my arms, “Oooh, that’s great, great! Maybe I can meet her there. You have to agree it’s not fair that people should assume such things!”

“What things?” Rei asked, “Maybe she just wants to be left alone, Usagi-chan. You can’t browbeat everyone you meet into hang out, it’s not fair.”

“It’s not fair for them to think she’s a brute!” Usagi-chan retorted, “Did she attack you Ami-chan?”

“Well, no…but we were just eating outr lunches. There was no call. She looked over at me once or twice and we smiled at each other, but if she wants to eat alone who am I to say anything?”

Rei-chan nodded, “Leave it, Usagi-chan. Besides how are you going to have time to get to know anyone else? We have our duty, we have our classes, you have other friends, right? It’s just one more person to keep all this,” she pointed to Usagi-chan’s brooch, “a secret from.”

Usagi-chan’s face broke into a very heavy pout, and she sighed loudly, “You’re mean, Rei-chan!” she exclaimed, “Telling me not to be nice to someone!”

It was Rei-chan’s turn to sigh, “I’m not telling you that you shouldn’t be nice to her. I’m just warning you to be careful. Do you really want to be lying to anyone else? You’ve already said how hard it’s been with Osaka-san and your family…”

I have to make up the test that I missed in cram school on Friday today. I have an appointment this afternoon after school. I’m not sure what’s going to happen between myself and Us-Tsukino-san today. I want to apologize, but I don’t think I can bring myself to face her. I did some very stupid things.

There’s  a possibility of activity going on with  youma at a museum that’s having a display of stones and jewelry this week. I’d already promised that I would look into it before all this happened. Even if we’re not talking too each other I can’t let down the side.