Mizuno Ami’s Journal

I’m having doubts…not doubts exactly something nags at me. Every once in a while I feel something…
That’s about the only way I can describe it–other than it’s becoming annoying.
Also we seem to be marking time.
I’ve been able to spend quite a bit of time sitting up on the roof of a nearby building. It feels somewhat familiar, comforting in a way I don’t like.

I had an interesting day.
I was leading the sheep to cram school, and we were walking past CROWN, so I thought I’d stop in.
The only person I could see was Furuhata-ignore-my-turtle-fetish-Motoki. He was, of course, talking to the turtle. Made a comment that he hadn’t seen me around in a while, “Is everything alright?” he says.
Apparently the senshi girls have been up until recently wandering around as though the world was about to end but yet he hasn’t seen me at all (of course). Anyway this is interesting to know.
Not quite so interesting he’s also curious as to why they always leave the karaoke room so neat and tidy. *snickers*
Haven’t really seen them around that much. I catch sight of Kino-kun or Tsukino-kun at Jyuban every once in a while, but not enough to encounter. Outside school, haven’t seen them much at all, not since…

Ticked off.
More than a little.
With Kunzite.
With pretty much everything.
Some very bad–really annoying things happened.
I don’t quite understand what he’s playing at (Kunzite) any more.
I thought I knew, but I suppose that’s what thought did.
Revenge seems to be his driving factor, and considering the nature of the organization I suppose it’s to be expected that he would do such double-cross, tell me one thing and then act another way sort of things, but *insert scream of rage and frustration* I could have taken her!!!
Then he said he didn’t like my attitude. Well! Who made me?
Things are going to come to a head with the senshi though, considering what happened, they have to. The princess, the actual princess, not ‘oh woe is me you all suck fake Venus’ is pretty strong. She vaporized a youma, shells coating the three other senshi and healed wounded Kamen all in one swoop.
I need to learn how to teleport. The shittenou can do that. Even I suck and kiss ass Nephrite can do that.

I woke up just now and was wondering where the heck I was.I feel so cold and so afraid.What am I doing?What’s going on?

How could people stand to read this?
Shoot them. All of them.
Awwww, Nephrite-kun doesn’t like me. I’m supposed to care? What are you supposed to be doing? Finding the crystal? *gasp* What am I supposed to be doing? Getting rid of senshi! Are they related? *shake your head like a good puppy* No, Mercury-san, no, they are not related. Sheesh, these people have such low I.Q’s. No wonder the senshi’s previous running around disorganized, hither and yon has still been able to combat them.
Kunzite, so far has been about the only one who has done anything effectively.
Although as I’ve said, lately, I’m not sure I understand what’s going on. Maybe he’s doing that play nice thing. Maybe he got more than he bargained for when he freed me.
What have the others done? Ticked off V, scoffed, posed, and generally gone after the wrong things, multiple times.
Although it does feel like a feather in the so-called cap to be called a bitch, and twice in two weeks. It’s a bit different to sap, walk-over, doormat…maybe I should make a tally…
Hm…what’s that? Sounds like someone’s limping home…must go see.

So this is how it happened.
They were all -so- shocked. It was funny. “Oh, no, Ami-chan, Ami-chan come back!” This is me shaking my head, and smirking. *sighs* Such baka-tachi. Maybe if you’d been paying attention? Or thinking with your frontal lobes?

Speaking of people who don’t think with their frontal lobes…teachers, apparently. I used to hold them in such high esteem, but none of them seem to notice or care about what’s going on. Makes me debate whether I could induce a riot, and then see, but that’s more of a waste of energy. We got quite a good chunk from the theme park. I knew I liked it for some reason.

Kunzite’s trying to sweet talk Beryl, again? Why? I don’t know.
He seemed so much more powerful from the other side. In some respects he seems to be running scared right now. What Moon did the other day at the fairground, after that whole pathetic speech about the mittens, has him worried. If she’s anything like she’s normally been that’s probably the first and last time she’ll be able to pull that one off, at least it could be if I was allowed to actually get rid of them!

Every time Tsukino-san sees me she looks as though she’s about to cry. I suppose it’s sweet really, but she needs to get over it. I suppose she will, one way or another.
School is a lot pleasanter now. Though it’s tedious to have to attend.
There was another encounter, as I had hoped, at the theme park, and Sailor Venus actually graced us with our presence. She’s not as tough as she seemed.
I don’t understand what Kunzite is playing at and I don’t see why we were so afraid of Beryl. She seems all talk and no action. I mean literally, she just stands there and poses. Why is she such a big deal?