Mizuno Ami’s Journal

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******Minna-san,
If you are reading this I am so sorry that I have let you down. I wish that you would not have to be reading this, because I know I will be missing you dearly if I am not with you; you have all been the truest friends I have ever known.
This is the result of me thinking about contigencies far too much, but if something ever happens I want to be sure you understand how much you have all meant to me, becauseI know I’m not the strongest of us by any means, there are many times I consider I would be the weakest link.
To that end, I have set this up so that it will beep my phone every so often, and if there are a certain number of times I do not respond and tell the computer not to, it will send this to here so that you can read it.

Usagi-chan,
you have some much heart and so much raw power, you don’t even know. Please don’t cry so much. I’m sure you tried your hardest to save me. I feel sure you could resurrect the dead, if you tried hard enough, but don’t take this as a challenge and kill yourself trying to do so.
You were my first friend, the first person who genuinely tried to get to know me for me, and to show me how rewarding friendship was truly supposed to be. You will always be dear to me. I’m so sorry that I’ve let you down.

Rei-chan,
Hontoni gomen nasai, because I have broken your trust and done to you what you had feared. I am so sorry to betray the promise I made, and to cause you further pain.
I truly did not wish for this to happen.
I wish we could have shared more time together. You are always so practical, and honest, with your advice. I wish I had listened to you more, and allowed myself to believe what you were telling me, because it was the truth, always.
Please don’t be rash.
Please be patient with Usagi-chan. I believe with all my heart that things will work out.
Have faith. That is one of your greatest strengths.

Mako-chan,
I wish I had your strength. You are so powerful, so forthright, so many things I could never be.
Please don’t do anything stupid…I mean, that will get you hurt again.
I am so very glad that you found us. I know you will continue to do your best–nothing can stand in your way, you won’t let it.
I hope you find your true love, and will continue to help Usagi-chan with hers.

Last but not least, Luna-san. I am sorry I was not able to be what you had hoped, and do what you had wished, or be as strong as I should be.
You are so very sweet, and knowledgable, hopefully you can continue on.
I wish you the best.
You will be able to work with the princess some day I know it.
May you unlock the rest of your secrets, also.

I hope, at least, I was able to accomplish something. Minna-san knows well how I dislike not being useful.
Perhaps we would be able to work side by side with Sailor Venus now. I am sorry to let every one down; to not be able to guard the princess to the best of my ability.
I know I must miss you all and love you dearly, because of how it upsets me to be writing this, but I would feel worse if something happened and I had not been able to.
As if I hadn’t said it enough, I am truly sorry.

Please perservere and win,
Ami-chan.

I feel in some ways I’ve been a little out of the loop lately. On the one hand it gives me time to catch up on my journal while I’m having a break from knitting because Luna is molesting my wool…but…we actually fought a battle, briefly, with the Princess’ help the other day, she ran off and Mars ran after her, Moon, Jupiter and myself were left to fight the two shittenou who were around. No sign of the one who kidnapped Usagi-chan the last month.
We found out what’s been troubling Usagi-chan; it -was- Chiba-san. Apparently he has a girlfriend.
We’ve been making mufflers in school, and while I’ve been bored, I’ve been making gloves for everyone also so that I can keep practicing and because I want to do something for my friends, other than help with homework.
Luna and I have been talking a lot lately about the various different things. Rei seems to have a burning project to do with the Princess that she doesn’t want to let anyone in on, and Mako is on a one woman crusade to find out exactly what’s going on with Chiba-san and Usagi-chan; I’ll leave her to that one, I’m sure I would be thoroughly useless with love problems, as I’ve said many times before.
I hope that soon we’re actually all able to be in the same room together, at the same time, but who knows, perhaps what Rei is working on means that Venus will actually come and visit and explain some things to us, and maybe something will work out as far as Usagi’s love situation goes, there are days I’ve seen her looking so sad, and I really wish I could do something more.
Well, I should go so that I can finish the gloves and then I decided I would use up the ends of my wool so that I can make something for Luna also, then I have to go home.