It’s a rough time of year for me. I often have freak outs around November/December time due to history. This is actually the tenth anniversary of some thing pretty hideous (or it will be on Friday). I do try to enjoy Samhain though because it IS my favorite holiday, and turning a negative into a positive is much better than sitting around twitching and moping and making everyone else miserable.
There’s a lot of, frankly, crap going on right now. I found out that while I can technically see my therapist before January in order to do so I have to come up with a good chunk of money that we really don’t have. I still owe $100 on the bill, and so I have to pay $50 more before they’ll let me make an appointment, and then at the appointment I have to pay the $70 fee there, and another $25 off the remaining balance…so…somehow I don’t see that happening, especially as I just found out that our emergency credit card is over the limit so rather than the normal $125 of which I usually try to pay $150 payment we actually owe them about $257 or $267 on the 11th. Thankfully both hubbie and I next get paid on the 7th…and he should have some overtime (I hope) given the PD is trying to not do over time so much any more.
But Samhain is a time for spring cleaning. I’ve got several things I keep meaning and meaning to put up on eBay because I never use them, old Playstation games which in some cases are collectibles now, and a whole batch of books that Mum gave me to sell and that were left by the house’s former owner, we don’t have the bookshelves to keep them, nor do we really want to given we have more than enough books ourselves as it is, so I need to stop procrastinating on that and get them listed, that might help us out somewhat (hopefully) and we’ll really start to get rid of any residual bad mojo from the house’s former owner. It’s not like I didn’t cleanse the place when we moved in, but Samhain is a great time to do more cleansings because of all the energy of the day and also the fact that other people some times can’t help but track negativity into your house.
I’m also going to spring clean the blog and give it a new look. I do love this picture but the layout itself is dark, and so I think I’m going to brighten it up a bit, but still use the picture in some capacity, as it is gorgeous, and I don’t want to get rid of Dusk Fire’s work, just change things around a bit. Death does signify new doors and new opportunities. Plus I really MISS having a three column layout.
Anyway, on with the day. Up, up and away!
