I’ve been having trouble finding things to write about on here lately, as you may have noticed. There are some things going on in my life and I’ve found that I’ve been reluctant to talk about them or write them down here, and that’s made it difficult.

My forays in therapy and my disability application have been the main things going on, but mental health especially in certain conditions is a very hot-button topic and I wasn’t sure if I was prepared mentally to out myself in that way and see what the blogsphere did with it.

I know my blog isn’t hugely popular, I don’t have a billion readers and I don’t know who a good portion of those readers are, so that makes things even more difficult for me. I have fears any time I put hand to keyboard that I’m going to wind up in a situation that I can’t handle or that if I bring up certain things that it will have negative repercussions for my family, and that’s the last thing I want to harm.

Most of my friends and close family know about this situation, but there are others that I don’t know if they would understand, and I don’t know if they read here or not, and then there would be the whole, “OMG I found out from YOUR BLOG!!!” situation…but I know that some of my family, granted most of those in that umbrella don’t even really know there is an internet let alone have access to it.

Family drama always makes things more complicated, especially when it’s just the potential for family drama hanging out there like a giant thunderhead. I don’t know if I’m fully ready to fight a storm right now.