Tarot magazine article is due October 2nd. I have to have under 1500 words. I have…0. Well technically the document has about 10 words on it but they’re things like “Business of Tarot” “Article 1: Licensing” things like that.

I spent yesterday on and off, when the munchkin was sleeping, staring at my notes and staring at the beeping cursor, and then looking at things online or playing karaoke. I tell myself yesterday I just wasn’t feeling creative that way because I’d been up since 6:30 because we had another appointment at the hospital and so I was tired and foggy and that doesn’t make for decent writing. I know that if I can just get that first paragraph out the rest should fall into place. The first paragraph has always been the hardest for me with short pieces. I used to rattle out 2500-4000 word essays on various topics for college all the time, and I tend to do 600-700 words for blog posts quite a bit, yet this…it’s nerves.

I haven’t done anything like this since college. I’m afraid I will completely suck. I feel as though I haven’t done enough research yet even though I keep hitting dead ends because government bureaucrats think that I’m messing with them when I call with my questions, so I wind up leaving voice mail after unanswered voice mail :-p I can turn that around and use that as fuel to make points in the article I know this, but still the words won’t come, at least none that work for my purposes yet.

It will come I have time; but I don’t want to leave things much longer. I’d intended to do interviews and things when we first moved, but life got in the way. I started them the week before the munchkin was hurt, then hospital trips and stays meant I couldn’t answer or follow-up right away. We’re not quite at the wire yet, but if I don’t get things done it will be October and things will be late, and that’s not good.